"the road is you"

One thing I realized is that I cannot make such a big change from one day to another. I am failing badly on becoming a cold-hearted self-centered bitch. Yesterday people asked me help an abusive way and I couldn't say no. However, I am tired. I hardly explore anyone even if they explore me all the time. I have to change even if I take a small step everyday. I have to stop being too nice and letting people step on me. I need new friends that I can trust that they won't do that. I wished it was something easy to recognize in people. I am in constant change more than ever before. I will take control of my life. I will find friends that I can discuss art, literature, love with all the passion necessary. Friends that share feelings and mind if I am not well. As much as I don't like sharing my feelings, it is more out of fear than anything. I am never brave enough to do anything, always need some encouragement. This is my road, this is me, this is who I am changing to be.