Be vulnerable my ass

Let yourself be vulnerable, they said. Happiness come from vulnerability...
And I let myself that, but not completely. Now I suffer the consequences of trying and getting no answer. Why it has always to be so hard? Even when it is suppose to be just a crazy act that will last a short period? I wish to understand what goes on other people's head. Why do they say things they don't really mean? I wonder if they even think about the consequences of those words. People that are emotional unstable like I am should walk around with a sign on our heads. To let people know that we are fragile and should be handle with care. The problem is wanting to let so many strangers actually know this deep trace on ourselves. And that these strangers shall have to be taught to know how to deal with us. Well, no sign would be needed if people were always kind and true to everyone. You don't want to tell the truth? Choose not saying anything instead of just a lie. Be quiet. Silence can sometimes be more rewarding than any bullshit words. We all need a bit of kindness and truth.

My goal is not to make you happy, but to keep myself sane

there is no hope left
for us to be back
we were never one
always apart
you moved too fast
and I was left in the dark
climbing the hole
wondering why
what went wrong
and in this past
what if it was
what if I
what if the night
went away with the dark
and I could see the bright sky
what if I stop
thinking of you
and leave it all behind
if only I could
keep myself sane
and keep me away
that's what I'll do
be on my own
opening my eyes
to see the light
out of this hole
no hope is left
I am just by myself
always moving on