Confessions of a tired soul

Why do we fall in love with idiots? What is that drives us? Why is there people that can just drive us crazy without doing anything? As always, I have no answers, but questions and confessions. There were a few guys that managed to drive me crazy in my life. There is one now that I know for a long time already, one and a half year. He can still mess with me even when I decide there is no hope and I should move on. What is it about him? He is nice and good looking, but there are men like that in the world. Is it because he flirts with me a bit? However, I never heard a compliment from him. We don't have much in common either. I am inserted in a world of books and cinema, in the pop culture bubble. He, he seems to just do sports and play videogames. What is it about him? Can anyone help me? I want to move on. I need to move on. I cannot be in this hopeless track just waiting for eternity. It has been too long already. Last week something more happen between us, but none of the two of us said anything about it afterwards. For a moment, I was so happy, in a way I don't remember ever being. Things are getting cold again and I am tired of this helter skelter of feelings. I need to enjoy life while I can and go just for the fun. I need to live in the limit and not to hold anything back. The hell with the idiot, let's try to make this queue move forward.