No plans

I am done organizing and inviting people out. I am loner, I just need to accept that and go with it. Funny how I had such a fun night yesterday and today the thing that I organized came to basically be dissolved. Now I will be putting myself in the situation I promised myself never to be in again. I am changed and clearly have no acquaintances like Rilke wrote: “I am learning to see. I don't know why it is, but everything enters me more deeply and doesn't stop where it once used to. I have an interior that I never knew of... What's the use of telling someone that I am changing? If I'm changing, I am no longer who I was; and if I am something else, it's obvious that I have no acquaintances. And I can't possibly write to strangers.” ― Rainer Maria Rilke, The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge