Practice makes perfect

Once more I need to rethink about my life. Where do I want to get? Am I able to achieve it the way I am going? What do I need to change? However, for this, I need to understand the why things go the way they go. That's the hard part. I never managed to learn that. Why I am the one left stranded on the corner? What is it about me? Am I still that closed of a person? Is that what keeps others away? I am so interested in human connections, but yet so far to understand them and put them in practice. I guess I am really a theoretician. It is time to start with the experiments...