Maker in the making

If only I could be an artist. If only I could inspire someone with my art work. If only I could let all my feelings out in a way to be worth to inspire someone. I love art so much, but I can only interact with it, connect to it as an outsider. Can I find something that would make me connect to art as the maker of art? What could I try? I dance, but I just repeating movements. I sing, but only repeating words. I used to draw, but only copying some other illustration. Is it lack of creativity? Is it fear of exposing myself that holds me back? Oh the questions that fill my mind. "... try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue", like Rilke said. I am living the questions and little by little getting close to live the answers when I am ready for them.