trying to love the question

Your indifference kills me
little by little
and I can't react
I don't know the problem
I put a lot effort into this
but it seems all in vain
maybe the problem is that I need so much effort
perhaps it is true that we can only get along with people compatible to us
what do I know about people
all I do is feel that it doesn't work
I try harder and harder
still no difference
feels like we are getting apart
maybe some people can only connect for some short time
and then it is all gone
I probably do the same
I hope I don't
I would hate myself even more
to think that I make people feel like this
why do I suffer if I can rationalise all
and see that some many things before me influenciate
things I have no control of
I'm just tired
I am trying to love the question Rainer
It's just harder than I thought