A mess of contradiction

I recently started doing therapy. I had two sessions so far. I am not sure yet what and how can it help. I learned that I am a contradiction in many ways. I get bored easily, but I like repetition a lot. I need to move and keep moving, but I am lazy as hell. I might be intelligent, but I feel dumb all the time. I hate small talk, but I don't know how to get to big talks. I don't trust people easily for certain things, but for others, I trust them too fast....